i think. i am the only one who's gonna flunk chinese i am so scared please. my mid-years were like shit. checking out ppl's blog, they all seem to be doing fine. i gave my self extra sleep today. decided that sch was gonna be a total bore anyway. jonny boy. teh ni and wk also didnt go. how funny. i seem to be the only gurl. har har.
i hate chinese. i hate the compre compo letter writing. zao ju. and that passage thing where u must choose outta 4 words. and that story u must choose the answer, outta 4 too. i hate listening compre too. DARN.
chinese is such a pain in the butt.
oh wad do we know we've only got 2 days more to study. making misery my company right now. i hate the way my mind doodles into dream land. and i dont even realise it, until an hour later, when i've just wasted time. again.
ohhh you just drive me crazy and bring my down. stupid chinese. i think im gonna go to church. to study later. tt way, gen wld make sure i dont dream. gawd. how am i gonna pass compre and letter writing. and the bloddy compo
arrrrrrrrhhhhh.
2:01 AM
im done
Thursday, May 26, 2005
MR TAN ROCKS*.
he gave us cotton candy! ahahahaha.
so nice of him. the gb gurls were like selling cotton candy. today. i really didnt bring my money deborah refuses to believe me. i wonder why. ok. so they came to our class, to sell it. den we DIDNT even said we wanted to buy from them. and mister tan was already considered buying it for us. 26 tubs of candy. yayness-
((:
so any way. THRU out of maths. ppl were like dying. rashmi slomp on her table, sleeping. our class was like being possessed or sumthing. i was super tired. eyes were closing. that ridiculous py, behind me stimulating ppl's pee machine. singing her HUAAAA WUUUU. or whatever she was ghastly singing out den she did the smack my hair thingg. and like i said. dont phunk with my hair. it seems to have a certain appeal .
HAR HAR.
oh wells. then after that. tt py started giving me weird names. so now, her names officially Diarrhea Sim Ni Ni
((:
oh wells. joshua's so nice ((: gave me his cotton candy. yay. manda has two tubs. yay yay yay.
den after that got pec meeting. whoots. i got my black shirt -heave a sigh of relieve- haha. pec meeting was fun. quack poke john in his tummy and said he was fat and he's only 49 kg. my gosh.
arhh. i am so so so so happy. you should know why ((:
something happened at the meeting that made me SMILE like a crocodile. litrally
((:
5:45 PM
im done
Monday, May 23, 2005
dang. got the fever. flu. cough. funny funny throat thing. boy am i feeling fly. ` and to make matters worst, Os in 8 days. dammnit. so fast. totally unprepared. mid years took up too much time. oh gosh. time really waits for no man.
being sick makes me unable to study cos must eat the stupid flu pill and panadol, and that makes you sleep. SIGH. i pratically drown litres of water everyday. and almost ate the whole water melon by myself
feel like a huge bucket of water. like those in gall0ns. funny.
i miss my friends.
i dun no. maybe its cause of what's been happening. all these troubles, fly to soon. i really hope that the last few months would be a huge bonding experience. i was beginning to love it alot. LOVE py. gary. wk. laohwang. joshua. xing. bobby [ started joining us =) ] alicia and vonne they call it a clique. so yar. we're one? i guess.
no one knows. im sure we're just a bunch of very very very very good friends i love the time out at seoul garden. then the talk at the movie area. it was great. i never knew joshua was THAT mature haha. and our problems were resolved. only on friday. everything torn apart. i pray it gets mended. and mended real soon.
2:01 AM
im done
Saturday, May 14, 2005
i just realised our prom hotel
isnt very impressive
no wonder py and gary wanna book a room somewhere else. gosh. why cant they let us pay 5 bucks more, and get a BETTER hotel man. but whart eva lar. should be thankful we are even having a prom. this prom better be nice. and yes. i am in a dilemma over what my hair's gonna be like. what my dress is gonna be like. and yeap. if i will look fat. but not too worry. von and gorilla say's ive got no ass. SO. i dont have to worry about a fat ass. ((:
har har.
so yea. i think its the first time i'd ever look really feminine or wad eva u wanna call it. cass to. id die of laugher. really. really really really. im gonna laugh during prom. her make up. her hair. her ass. the whole of her. im just gonna laugh till i drop dead. ((:
-beamssss-
jestyn's back jestyn's back jestyn's back jestyn's back jestyn's back jestyn's back jestyn's back jestyn's back.
get the tone?
jestyn's back! -grins likean idiot i missed you . alot
8:18 PM
im done
Friday, May 13, 2005
can just smell the essence- the essence of freedom. har har har. 3 more days of papers. and like 10+ days to chinese Os. i cant wait to whack the ever so sweet Os paper with my brown brown pen. yep. i use dark brown. unlike py. use LIGHT blue. like turquoise. tt lamo. oh yes. sick ready. played in the rain everyday. and my precious specs got whacked yesterday. so sad.
sigh
yes. today they annouced bout promm everyone's excited. the question that everyone's asking is - you going?
i feel so. yucky. cos im regretting the fact that im going. what am i gonna wear. damn it a dress would do fine. but. sigh im AMANDA B. since when does she wear dresses. shiversss. plus make-up and the stilletto's my gosh. i cant picture that. the last time von tried to paint my face, she sounded like she would have WAY more fun at the zoo. ((:
oh wells. py vonne. they can be pretty. dress gorgeously. i would just stick to my fbt and mitchell shirt and my nikes. really.
oh my gosh. i cant imagine what prom would be like. may the lord bless me. prom without ur best friends would be stupid. really. if bobby doesnt come, it'd be so saddening. i told her since we were together when we stepped in to gmeth pri, we were together in P1 orientation. so we should be at prom together. simple theory isnt it.
esther say's she's only going cos of bobby. binn's gonna take claire . i think. or barny's gonna take claire? i have no idea. i hope jonathan goes. as i said. prom without ur bestssfriends. is stupid.
nique. come too kk. please? the gorilla's coming ((: beloved vonnedar and py's def going hooooooray. -major smile even siva's coming. haha. i hope someone wont be a major. hissifit, with the whines and rants and what not.
7:26 PM
im done
Thursday, May 12, 2005
just finish chem paper. we are treating it like its all over ready. play in sch EVERY day. netball netball netball rain shine. rain or shine. wet or dry. haha. today. TOTALLY drenched. and i mean literally. played in the rain. wk. py. teh-ni. rxing. joshua. vonne. xuan. me. lao hwang didnt play today. yupp. rx shocked me by playing. really.
so aniwae. i love playing with my class. HAR HAR. well. life's been alright. its like hell at one moment, sweet on other times.
yea.
watched. simple life, the re-run, on star world. the song.. was like. the guy's in love wth the girl next door. SO SWEET. arrrrrrrrrrrrrh lucky lucky. ((:
the gurl from next door. she looks like an angel
appyirthdayniquechua! <3 have a sweet xixteen baby cooowww.
5:37 PM
im done
Sunday, May 08, 2005
wanna say a big SORRY
to dearest teh-ni / tang/ sexytree/ GARY.
yes yes.
really sorry yar. lately all ive done is waste my time. not study. so i feel real guilty bout using the phone.
im sorry that i cant talk now. worried you see. after mid-years. promise kk. i will have conference. really really.
church was ok. went to cass house after. supposedly to study. another day wasted. i hate myself. words just dont go in. i wonder why. so aniwae. went for piano. TOTAL humiliation. i had to play in front of ben. ben's SUPER - inhumane when he touches the piano. i was so embarassed please. cos i didnt practice piano for 2 weeks. or in a nasty term, my whole life. cos i hate playing the piano. i wanna be a ballerina. not a pianist. my mom just wouldnt lemme be a ballerina. i wonder why. so wad eva. now i wanna be a bassist. but as usual.
NO.
yup. clear crispt, simple.
so wth. left ms marie's house feeling so stupid and ben was playing his chopin piece. so so so so so so ashamed.
well. argh. another week to struggle through. life's hell now. late nights, black rings, some ppl are so rude, and nasty, when its the exam period.
7:52 PM
im done
Thursday, May 05, 2005
im so tired. spinning round in my dark lil world. i dun noe. giddy giddy giddy. i think im gonna flunk my el paper. i couldnt concentrate really. was giddy like shit. maybe some body did voodoo. wad eva.
well at least chinese listening compre went well.
((:
sick of mugging, thou i havent started. i dont think i wanna go jc. just fast forward. why cant i just be a royal queen. DARN.
so im supposed to be mugging for chinese. but wth. wk and lao hwang all watching naruto now. teh ni's . . being teh ni. ((:
arggggggggh.
know what?! the most amazing thingg happened! teh ni went to church. FINALLY. with py. well. he claimed he only went cos i pangsei-ED him on sunday.
see. on last sunday, went to church as usual. then chilled out with joanna daph and naaa (had my cheesy pie. yummy yummy) so like i ask teh ni whether wanna go out to study. cos the night before he asked whether i wanna go study. yea. so he went to play tennis first. but i didnt know he only started playing tennis at like 11 or sumthing so he wanted to meet at 2. but SO late. no point meeting, cant study anything. so i tell him better not meet. den he was like.. &@(!*#)(@(*$#@&(*@#&$ tt kinda thingg. ((:
so anyway. he went to py's church. the rock. cos he got nuttin to do. or so he claims. aniwae. he took the holy communion thinkin it was refreshments. he thought they were offering ribena in a service, REFRESHMENTS
LOL.
((:
ok. im gonna study chinese
teh ni. if you read my bloggg
COME TO CHURCH AGAIN! yess?
5:59 PM
im done
Monday, May 02, 2005
you come and you go. im prolly gonna stop blogging. for a longg time. so this should be my last post, till whenever. cos ive just read foxtrot and, AM feeling kinda retarded. ((:
yea. come and go. jestyn's coming back on 13th or so. its been almost 2 months since he's really in singapore. then zm. that idiot. arggggh. he's leaving so soon. then i will loose this retarded ass that brightens my day. sigh sigh sigh. well. it's all God's plan.
life's been a pain.
school life, horrid. studies are like crapp. but mates. of class. we're closer. definitely. well.
i think im gonna go mug now.
try to at least.
ayes. if youre a woman. please knock some sense into the ungentleman guys in our sch. SERIOUSLY, please do. THE GORILLA.esp. think its fine for a guy to make a girl wait sheesh. waited like crap for them today. lao hwang and gorilla. worst than woman. and i have no right to get mad wth`
tsk tsk.
10:24 AM
im done
Sunday, May 01, 2005
honestly, im pissed wth only you. you're childish immature. i freaking dont owe you a living. seriously. i dont have to cheer you up. dont have to be the only one that bothers to talk to you dont have to be your punching bag dont have to hear ur pathetic whines dont have to do this that and that. so dont freaking think that im supposed to.
fine. i know i dont sound pleasant, but wth. nique said i should be more nasty. py said i should be meaner. maybe then ppl will stop taking my trust forgranted maybe being and old bitch isnt that bad maybe for once ppl will stop lying to me.
just for once, i'd like to give people a taste of their own medicine
to ppl who changed me, dont expect me to be the same old retarded smiley- i cant go back to being so carefree with you. because, ive learn so much in 3 months. some how, i wished i never had to grow up i wished you were what i saw you as. i wished that things didnt have to change to. but. its your fault. really.
now im more mature. ( should be) i know ppl betray i know ppl lie i know the world is NOT a pleasant place.
this awful world. coated with sweet lies filthy disguise hypoctrites disgusting rats. desparados. liars. a whole.
so. you wonder why i forgive people that easily. i wonder too. i wonder why im not some depressed piece of shit. well. im thankful for that.
i hope my halo still stays. halo . the angel. manda. rightttt. ((: because i dont like being and evil nasty bitch. `
