Wednesday, August 30, 2006
ri boys. (hahaha in jj's tone. sense the sarcasm)
hahaha. small guo wanted me to send him all the pics. i couldnt tahan this picture. too hilarious. and you might wonder what they were doing. and im glad colleenn captured it (:
small guo! you hipp but still extremely extremely odd ball. hahaha. thanks for making me laugh always(: with your weirdness. you make people roll our eyes alot! maybe you'll grow up to be ALOT like robin, who knows whether that's a good thing, judging from the picture :D
9:53 PM
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
the bible tells us to cast all our cares on him; because he cares for us.
this is more than a promise, its a command.
so be at rest; because today, God is working in ways, that you cannot see.
he never sleeps, he NEVER slumbers.
he never tires of hearing our prayers.
when we are weak, he becomes stronger.
oh really really really?
where do you find hope , where do you get peace
why's the sky darker than ever, why does God seem so far away.
why am i terribly demoralised;
so much for faith hope joy peace love patience.
somebody's gotta stop me from thinking bout horrid ideas):
habakkuk 3:17-18
Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
9:46 AM
im done
Monday, August 21, 2006
i feel so guilty lar.
estoot msged me last night, this was how her msg went,
"cass and i meeting for dinner tmr at raffles, PLEASE SAY YOU'D COME!"
"okay 6 then! sorry i know you're super busy. thanks for taking the time of babe!cant wait to see you you freak! HOHO"
i felt so sad when i read it! like i havent spend enough time with everyone! ):
i mean, sch's a killer with assignments and catching up with EVERYTHING, but i TRY to make time for everyone!
i thought we were all used to the- no-time for each other thing-
I THOUGHT; i never knew i missed you guys so much.
i mean, ARG. ESTHERBEH. ARGH. you freak. ive known you since terrapins ruled this land!
she's the one that caused all this moo moo madness, the cows, and me being related to buddha.
yea.
ARG, YUYU. ARGGGGH.
i feel so so uber sad lar. gm's netball is gonna close. or close ready. WHICHEVER.
WHATEVER. make space for volley ball girls. WHATEVER.
this is crapp lar. gm is gonna be a crapp sch by the time we reach 25.
makes it seem all we ever worked for's like going to waste!
all misschen/ miss wee trained us for, like gone to waste?!
all the sun/laughter/ sweat/ blood/ injuries/ TEARS/ teamspirit.
i still rmb that misschen's the bestest coach ever! how she smiled ever so proudly when we did her proud by winning all those medals,
i feel so proud of our team, our achievments,
i still remember ms wee and ms chenbelieving in us,
TRAINING US UNTIL WE ALMOST DIED.
from 30 over girls in the beginning of sec 1, to 9 , till eventually just 7. just nice for a team, without any reserves.
and ms wee pushing me until i cried!
now, we've comed this far.
estoot's uncle bob's SA CAPTAIN. mister bob asked her to join extreme.
im so proud of her. so so so proud.
ARG. yuyu, YUYUYUYUYUYUYUYUYUYUYU. so sad lar. ):
i think the only proudest thing in my whole entire life is joining netball, netball gave me my bestest friends in sch, yuyu and est (and ka you sickening headprefect.but u didnt join netball so notcounted). seeyun.lifeng (the chinafied sampat who changed my name to peanut and bernerd.) quack quack the yallow yallow orang orang. SEEYUN. the super caring one! and PAULA. YES I MISS PAULA TOO.
yu, est, ka- thanks for being there always always always, when results were shit, u were there, when teo was poo, you guys were there. when all else was down/ wrong, you all were there. for the street netball, for the burps, the screams, for all the fun in the sun, for the stealing of my food, for the forcing me to eat!(esp yuyu). YUSHU, u know i'll never forget you right? all the pe sessions, the hockey games, the soccer, the crazy crazy street netball. the volleyball, the frisbeee! my partner, RAHH. im feeling emo. hahahahah.
so much things to tell you guys lar. feels like i got not enough time! (as if im dying)
with all you spastic people having chinese As after promos, and yushu GOT new friends):
beeeg click with 4 people (hahahaha ur words always ULTRA funny)
DATE ME YOU GUYS. im free after 25sept. as free as the birds in the sky that only know how to pungsai. YAR.
dont say i never tell you im free.
IM FREEEEEEE. okay yuyu. OKAY KA. i know u read my blog u stalker.
(:
i loveyou all, im gonna be a guai kia and mugg now! CHEM CHEM CHEM! yay(:
10:44 PM
im done
Thursday, August 17, 2006
i changed my template; in honour of this girl called
khariah.
as in chiral carbons; yea. somewhere along that line of pronounciation. i call her kaya thou.
and she's awesome. i've barely known her for very long, but she's taught me so much about patience, and as grace said, the real value of frienship.
unselfish giving.
im sure even if i go to mars and come back down, all weird and toxicated, she'll still be the sweettest sweetest little pie on earth.
THANKYOU FOR CHEERING ME UP, DAY AFTER DAY, nono; MINUTES AFTER MINUETS.
thankyoufor everything ! EVERYTHING.
im glad i met you.
you and hairin, we 3 together; yea.
you're the only thing that i LOVE about our sch. (:
so after today, i thank GOD for the strength he provided for us to get by this day.
i thank god for the song ' i surrender'. so so so meaningful.
OH and i have like more toothbrushes in my house, cos those who stayed over, left their toothbrushes here! (:
small guo, colleeen, nana, - dan(came at 3!)
P.S what a lovely shirt! (mine) thanks for the wonderful comments! i will rememberrrr.
8:28 PM
im done
have you read robin's blog? it feels so sad, the last line of it all. like its stamp with finality, and the confirmation that robin's really gone. seems so quiet. im not used to YOU being serious! you're always being a monkey, monkeying me. yes .even like your last hour in changi aiport also gotta say i stink!
anthony was saying this morn, after sending robin off, at breakfast. at how everyone would HAVE to move on, and when you come back, the world wouldnt quite ever be the same again. anthony said how much it would really hurt to see your friends go, but then, ..... ):
i dont really know these things. just that i know friendships really need effort to keep them going.
honestly, ive never really had anyone i was quite close to, who left for better seas. even amanda (yong) , i never really knew her well, cos when our cg was getting close, she left. she left the day i was going to spain. i still rmb i really wanted to see her off but my mom was ULTRA pissed. saying i dont appreciate my family and all, and only cared bout my friends.
its true i used to hate staying at home. i've never loved staying at home and doing nothing, unless i had gone out EVERY SINGLE day till night-fell for 2 consecutive weeks or so, then yea, i'll stay at home for one week, to watch my korean dramas. or just teevee. and i never understood how people could ever ever feel homesick from camps. or just being apart from home. they cry when they leave their house for days. i cry when i leave the camp, cos i have to go home. i bet i spend at least a month away every year at all the sch camps. and what not.
i still rmb. after ONE CAMP, although i was so sick from staying up the whole night, i planned to meet my grp mates after we broke camp and have gone home to put down our stuff. and then after like midnight, go for netball chalet where i'll have to 'taunt' another night. (: but i didnt, in the end, cos i had fever, and my mom ranted, and my camp mates (as usual) were all konked out.
ANYWAY, reading his blog and thinking alot, has made me realised that leaving spore isnt as easy or peasy as ive ever imagined. even if i were to apply and get to australia, i'll really die. i mean, i'll miss my mom. i love my mom. she's suffered like mad for me! ive been such-an awful princessy daughter that even if my friends come with weird requests, she's all prepared for anything. just like last night, when everybody (not just ONE body) came at weird timings, my mom still entertained them, when she had to get up at 5, to slought her guts out.
you know, ive never ever ironed the clothes for her, wash or hung the clothes for her. never washed the WHOLE family's dishes, ive never made my own bed, like really, pull on the covers. when i had my midterms, my mom fell on her hand, and tore her right ligament and cracked her elbow. i was so stressed with sch, was so irritating, and she still loved me, and cleaned the whole house with her injured hand.
i used to laugh at the way nana's so whiny with her mother, at how much she cant live without her mom, i never knew it was the same for me too. ARGH. i love my family lar. its a shame it took me 17 years and 6 mths to actually realised that thou its crystal clear!
wad's gotten me so emo and everything, was when nana was like, " manda i'll cry if u're going."
my nana. ive kinda taken our friendship as per norm. like i'll really really miss her. she's my best friend, she was my best friend, IS my best friend. no matter how much we've changed and how much we've grown apart, i still love her, and when the world and everything else falls apart, i'll still see ourselves when we were like younger.
SIGH. and then there's everyother friend that matter so much, so significantly. collleeen the beenqueen for one, daniellle lambera, and the list goes on and on and on. to those i really matter to, and those that really matter to me. (yuyu esthootbehhlakku. SO ON,)
as daddy says, he doesnt know how i'll do my own laundry, who'll wake me up, cos its just really tough waking me up (the bed must be REALLY COMFY THOU) yea. daddy says i'll prolly starve and save all my money, to go __________. hahahahahah.
i dunno lar. but it's more or less planned this way. wait till october. i pray God takes care of every thing. cos i have no idea what i want. or wad's best for me.
i guess God places things in your way for many reasons. bountiful, countless, amazing, god-planned.
friends forever ; if you believe in ever, then make ever ever, cos if you never ever,
then i'll friendship wont be FORever.
gotit?
4 more weeks to endterms, 12 days to piano exam.
someone just shoot me please>
2:21 PM
im done
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
i feel like such a contradicting idiot.
my essay is to prove god doesnt exist, and evolution did.
10% of final terms.
argh.
8:37 AM
im done
Sunday, August 13, 2006
i shall post in colors.
after all, life should be all about colors, aint it?
some how, life has been knocking weirdly in lots of people's faces.
you make many new friends, the old ones fade out.
the idiotic and total jerk way of saying it, you loose some you gain some.
i dont like loosing my most impt friends. but lately, i feel like we're drifting away all over again! we once made prayed about it, but you're like loosing your trust and getting all weird again!
that goes for pot's bestfriend too ):
sigh. sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.
what can we do, what can we pray.
to make everything horrible just fade away-
COLLEENTHEBEEN QUEEN came to my house today!
we have pics but its in my other com, so lazy to go retrieve it, maybe some other day, i shall post it.
it was really fun making thebishop/pope/whichever-you'd-prefer's gift, but really really saddening too.
when we wrote the words, it just suddenly dawn on me, that the days will be passing ever so quickly.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrh.
sian. the been queen's staying over on wed, so that we' can go to the airport in the MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
tsk, i better finish my assignments by today or tmr, before i have no mood at all.
MCB teacher's gonna give a 4 chpt test on sat. WHO GOES TO SCH ON SAT LA!
im gonna go do my assignment ; for those who believe in evolution, and all that crapp.
9:36 PM
im done
Friday, August 11, 2006
well, its been a crazy week.
im beggining to not understand chem.
its getting far to crazy. ):
RAHHH.
anyway, went for fop on sun. i was battling with myself whether to go for it or study physio!
but i really wanna go, not because of ANY band, but DON MOEN. like there's many things i live for, and there's weird things im happy i did at least once in my life. LIKE, donating to that aunty with the green bag at tampines station, thou she looks like she still can do light work. she's there almost everyday.
so anyway, went with small guo. who's the ODDEST cheap thrill dong dong on earth (: and i say that with pride! yea, dan/na/jj/edlyn/tim. don moen was really good LAR!
he's voice is like ------. and his gifts are like -----. and he's just unbelievable. i kinda fell in love with god all over again, and i guess that's the way he provided peace in me.
so anyway, physio test was okayy. cos all the LONG hours spent on muscles paid of! whheeee. (:
im going for planetshakers later. i dunno what to expect, but i pray god calms me down.
AM SO STRESSED. ): so much to study. so much to do. 5 weeks till end terms! not that it matters as much as entry to. __________________________
i havent applied yet, but i really pray i get in. i havent applied yet, and that's wad's killing me most. it drives me nuts insane and jumpy with anxiety.
):
anyway, on the nonsence side, PEOPLE like talking to me cos im random! hahahahah that's so funny. when i heard 2 people say that at the exact same time! and my sch mates think im an introvert! :D hahaha! so different from serve when im like such a-without a doubt- extrovert.
its funny , how much things have change, how ive change,
thinking of the personality test session we had during serve, when we were split into Is and Es, and there was a real battle going on cos the INTROVERTS said the EXTROVERTS were attention seekers who didnt use their brains and talk without thinking. and then the extroverts were so angry and were like, : " just because you dont say anything you all think you all are so smart!" i cant really rmb the WHOLE argument, and presentation but i remember that our main conclusion was that introverts were very very very mean. (:
aye, i miss joshualin. hhahahaha. (: dont get me wrong! but he's so cute and fun! we were like part of the extroverts who got offended and like trashed the introverts back toget, along with bings and the rest! hahahahah
5:27 PM
im done
Friday, August 04, 2006
maybe its just me; or i dunno.
i think the world is going kuku.
for one, this aunty, when i was buying dinner today, she was like, "are you singaporean?"
and im like ya??
and she was like, hmm you dont look or sound singaporean, and after a minute, she beamed at me.
NOW; wad's that supposed to mean!?
whatever, so i came home after piano, almost 8+ 9. and my daddy, was watching xmen evolution on cartoon network.
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my father. actually fancies cartoons.LOL.
and then my bro came home, and threw me this turtle green softtoy THING. and said it was for me!?!?
and i spend the whole time thinking he was bluffing me. but he was for real!
my bro actually bought me a GIFT. and he didnt even buy me any presents, in all my wonderful 17 years of life.
NO CHRISTMAS; NO BIRTHDAY PRESENTS.
umm yes.
OH WELLS; on a side note, i have NO idea why people keep buying me tortises/turtles! its not that i fancy them at all! i have bad history with them! i remembered in primary sch, 4hope, the ULTIMATE class, had terrapins as class pets, then alot of ppl decided to kinda leave their terrapins in class, cos it was like kinda cool. so we had 6- or so terrapins, might be more.
yea anyway, we had duty rosters, and those on duty had to clean the terrapin's SHIT. change the water and all.
and when YOU had the MONDAY duties, you DIE. cos the terrapins BOMB the tank . like seriously, 3 days, they poo like mad, and the smell makes you faint.i still remember screaming when they emptied the tank in the sink. it was SO SO SO SO FREAKING SMELLY.
so many terrapins.
what joy!
so see; i dont fancy terrapins. and i receive 4 turtles/ terrapins for my birthday this year. cos people think they're green. so i like them. -.-
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hahahah. but i love the presents ALL the same! (:
it was really sweet of you all! to give me real life terrapins! i named them after my FAVORITE serve mate, george! the male terrapin's georgie, and the female's bush.
toobad, georgie's dead, im left with only bush.
9:20 PM
im done
ri boys. (hahaha in jj's tone. sense the sarcasm)