the sound of faith

Monday, April 24, 2006

i never treasured sunday like that before..
so precious- i dont want it to go to waste.
after youth today, hung out with robin chrissss ant.. and the rest at fellowship deck for awhile,
robin's so lame. (:

then went to bedok corner with the guys joshdanbrandonlesliemoss,and abby nacolleen.
had loads of fun. cos moss came (:
and we did retardart things. and talked bout retardart stuff.

and then we went to brandon's house!
COOL HOUSE.

i wish my sundays would be filled like the ENTIRE day.
i wish there's church camp. like now.

):
i miss my churchmateys.

2:40 PM

im done

Thursday, April 20, 2006

lmy brother let me used his com.
(:
my darn internet has crashed.
while dreaming today, i scribbled YUYU ROCKS in my book.
to absorbed in dreaming. i supposed. too used to scribbling on that ass's paper.

i miss how MISS NG teaches, ): and mr LIM. my teacher thaught us how to read the VERNIER CALIPER TODAY. YIPPY.YIPPY YIPPY.

and today, my chem lecturer told us about labs having ovens,
I WONDER WHY GM DOESNT HAVE OVENS, make us do that stupid experiment that charred the paper, and make me and YUSHU scream and put out fires like mad. ALMOST BURNT OURSELVES ALIVE.

anyways. moving on, reality check.

WHAT'S WORST THAN LOSING SOMEONE YOU LOVE?

WATCHING THEM DIE IN PAIN AND AGONY.

i cried in the hospital today. can u imagine not having your mom! i cant, my mom is like so precious to me. and my dearest cuzzie is only thirteen. ): my aunt's in the terminal stage of cancer. the cancerous cells have already attacked the liver. and the doctors cant do anything about it, remove that fishball size thing, and the cells would spread faster, so lets say they cut a hole in my aunt, only to realize they cant do anything about it, so they close the hole back. and now, she's paying to suffer 1000 times more, for nothing. you can see the tears in her eyes. not being able to move at all, her womb hurting like. --------.

to my dearest beloved aunt,

the look in your eye
of pain and desire
to see the world revolve
or your little child's trials

i wish i could help you,
but what can i do.
i cant ease the pain,
only try to.
i really wish for something
something so true
from god almighty,
to really bless you.

his plans are devine
but seemingly unkind ,
he whisper so softly:" child, you're mine. trust me and you'd be fine."
assurance so strong
i prayed even harder for you

my dearest aunt,
nought i can say
aint much i can do
but i'll walk the last days with you
and God will carry you through.

10:23 PM

im done

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

EASTER'S OVER ): lets look forward to chrismas now!

easter camp went quite well. as in, although my lectures were like, nervous run through, and i couldnt really remember what i wanted to say, God made it okay. It was a first step to alot of things. I learnt alot too. and i realised why i can talk alot of nonsence on the spot in front of people, but just become speechless on stage. and then there was my the piano playing for worship. it was RATHER obvious i stumbled. but then God still touched everyone. I learnt one really really important thing, and its that, it would not be by OUR might that we play super super well and we touch the people, or the youths, its God's very own presence and his hand at work.I played badly, but its God who decides. as long as i gave it my all. so im working hard to improve. and im working hard to stop stage frights. and God's gotta help me! (:

During easter camp, we went to Jeremy and Alex's church OLPS. and attended a catholic mass. it really opened my eyes to how different denominations worshiped Jesus. its like some may say that catholics worshipped statues and all that, but they only venerated mary, not worshiped her. if i heard correctly that is. i mean like do you know how much respect for God the catholics seem to have?

they have like huge lines of people attending the service, and if you're among the later ones (who still come before the service starts!), you gotta stand thru the WHOLE service cos theres not enough seats, and we kneeled like 64 times during that particular mass. uncle sinchee's son, Jeremy actually counted. hahaha. anyway, the people who had no seats not only needed to stand thru the ceremony, they kneeled on the ground when we were kneeling on the padded thing. like knowing they would not get seats, why did they still come? that really amazes me. that they had this personal love for God so deep, that they'd come to church still.

well, that night robin ant me colleen dan were like busy preparing for the next day, at 2+ we were still cutting stuff, and preparing stuff. by 3+ robin colleen and dan had knocked off. only anthony and i were still writing speeches. well we slept 4+ was so tired! veeny came in the morning and bought me red bull on the way hahahaha (: so nice of thebird. gracie cooked breakfast (with unclesinchee)!

anyway, ant(taoni LOL) says i should pack robin up in a zip-lock bag and bring him home cos im so amused by him. he entertains me! and everything he does i'd laugh. HAHA. the bishop quek.
soit was quite a happy easter for me, cabbed to church on sun. went to dan's chalet, ride home, good bonding time (:

jestyn asked me bout my sch like last week, and all, and i told him. i told him this is like such an awkward route but i know God wants me to learn smth. and he said alot about trust and faith. but one sentence rings like a bell,

THEN THIS IS GOD'S PERFECT AWKWARD PLAN>

8:42 AM

im done

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

i need some strength.

im totally drained.
just came home from na's.
i need to finish easter camp stuff! and i've got no time. ):
i need wisdom. i need to plan it fast.

I NEED SOME HOPE

your grace still amazes me ; craig and dean philip

that's the almost solo song im playing for easter camp. with shaun doing feel-ins. and those awesome stuff he does.
its so nice when they play it.(thecd) it sounds so boring and SH I TT Y and all just simply wrong when i play it.
):

I NEED YOU ; w h o e ve r y o u a r e.

jitterbugs' ride calling thee home>

12:29 PM

im done

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

i finally had the time to sit and kinda slow down the fast-paced life.
I READ THE SUNDAY PAPERS.
so funny, talks about how we swear nowadays. and bitch was such a taboo word.
now, its like, -
well. you all know how shocking it is to use that word these days.
and asshole and bloody and damn, are all swear words. oh wow. betcha didnt know that.

can you believe that? yuyu and i used to call each other ASSes.
so we were swearing at each other?
the more we used ass, the more affectionate the word became. seriously. used to be hilarious.
cos of this couple on amazing race. always scold each other STUPID. when they love each other.
i remember the days in yuyu's kitchen, when est and i were cooking, we keep play acting those bobo's. hahaha. so funny. (:

well well well.
josh's in china ready. went to send him of at 6.30AM on sat. with abby na, dan, leslie, josh, MOSSY.
yupp. had a blast during breakfast.
cos of ben the man, now there's moss theburger, pancake, or taupok. whichever you prefer.
and sunday, had easter camp meeting until 5! can you beat that!
i was so so so so so so so so so so sooOooo tired ):
then cabbed to grandma's cos jay and all cousins were like waiting! since noon.

stayed for dinner, then came home. splitting headache. wanted to sleep, but watched da chang jing in my brother's room till 1. thevcd(:
so dumb lar. the cd is 4 hours long, HOW TO STOP HALFWAY.
hahahhaha.
so mon, went out with na, and spent alot ): on worthless items.
my heart is so heavy and pain now.
like really really pain.

then i went to sch,
and TODAY. gonna rush to piano later, after i finalise my topic's easter camp notes.
after piano, gonna meet ant. for another meeting!
then after meeting , WORSHIP PRAC. yay.

nat asked me to play for easter camp. hehs. so exciting. (:
and after worship gonna stayover at na's.
to study. im so far back in class. thou sch wont start till 17th.
IM SO HAPPY. tmr's the last of tutorials! no more night sessions!

and then thus would be busying around.
and friday would be GOOD FRIDAY.
time flys so fast.

yesterday when we were out shopping, na was like saying about how much she's been blessed. with her clothes and all. i cant stand her, just spent her money anyhow, with no care. i cant do that. my mom and dad and bro will kill me. but then, last night i stop to think, i already have so much. i've really been blessed with knowledge and the love of God. i dunno its this overwhelming feeling that God has his hands embracing me, protecting me, loving me, and its really comforting, that all i have to do, is really really trust in him.

obviously life isnt all peasy, there are stuff that troubles HUMANS. loads.

I SURRENDER MY ALL IN WORSHIP OF THE KING>

9:26 AM

im done

Friday, April 07, 2006

EVERYBODY's sick recently, TAKECARE AND GET WELL SOON. (:
PEU, DAN, WL, me-
hahahah.

welll, i think im suddenly hit with the country craze.
this year that is,
growing up in a family that loves country music, the only one FRIEND i know who knows those ancient cowboy songs, is ESTHER BEH.
if i sing those songs to yuyu, she'll give me this look.

the one with the eyes glaring at you not moving at all, and her mouth twisted in some shape.

HAHAHAA.

when i watched walk the line with jac eli and minxing, then i started singing with them, cos so exciting right, and i got that look.
oh wellls, maybe id go learn how to play the fiddle! after my piano (:

YESTERDAY
on my way to piano, i was just thinking,
how binnie used to call me dumb blonde and kiatty used to call me bimbo.
damn funnaye. cos they know i can be smart see,
i miss my sch days with them. ):
den at night,
ben called me a dumb blonde too!

ARGGHH.

but its funny lar. hahaha.
i miss how much fun kiatty and i had, i wished we 3 can be still goodfriends, like yuyu said.

SIAN.

EVEN THOSE ALL PICTURES HAVE BEGUN TO FADE>

9:52 AM

im done

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

i've got fever ):
stupid bugg. stupid stupid bugg.
anyway, sch's started. im studying a maths for now! raaaahh.
anyone wanna give me free amaths lessons? (:

i've accomplish reading the PREFACE of mom's anatomy book.
practiced 2 hours of piano, and kinda finish surds. (:

and easter camp . YOU GUYS MUST GO. dont pungseh again! like ONEDAY.
OKAY.

THE JOY OF THELORD SHALL BE MY STRENGHT>

7:36 AM

im done

Saturday, April 01, 2006

just a little of grad night. (: yea. i've zipped everything ready! finally ! can send to minxing. grad night was awesome. hehs. i really miss all of them! geri, george, mingyang, minxing, janny! jacky! shazzy! ailing! and wanli and- HELLOPANDAS. ): and the rest of serve! like poanie! ileen and ALL>

i think we were really crazy that night. i felt real guilty making georgie take loads of pictures! cos he's the only guy that didnt run off..hahahaah. but like that's the last we'd see of his REALLY NICE hair. serve's really ended . ):

no more meeting in that shawhall. no more meeting all 63 or so of us. all together. sigh.
i miss everyone already!

DONT YOU WISH THAT THE WEATHER WAS BEAUTIFUL>

1:19 PM

im done