really sorry yar. lately all ive done is waste my time. not study. so i feel real guilty bout using the phone.
im sorry that i cant talk now. worried you see. after mid-years. promise kk. i will have conference. really really.
church was ok. went to cass house after. supposedly to study. another day wasted. i hate myself. words just dont go in. i wonder why. so aniwae. went for piano. TOTAL humiliation. i had to play in front of ben. ben's SUPER - inhumane when he touches the piano. i was so embarassed please. cos i didnt practice piano for 2 weeks. or in a nasty term, my whole life. cos i hate playing the piano. i wanna be a ballerina. not a pianist. my mom just wouldnt lemme be a ballerina. i wonder why. so wad eva. now i wanna be a bassist. but as usual.
NO.
yup. clear crispt, simple.
so wth. left ms marie's house feeling so stupid and ben was playing his chopin piece. so so so so so so ashamed.
well. argh. another week to struggle through. life's hell now. late nights, black rings, some ppl are so rude, and nasty, when its the exam period.
