i should be happy shouldnt i? a whole new com. new monitor. new technological stuff. all the whoo-hahs. am finally able to use the com peacefully....
but im not.
i really am not.
there's way too much stuff going on this year that has change my oppinion about the materials in ones' life. i have learn in 1 mth and 2 deaths that spending money and saving money to spend money - is stupid. there is soo much grieve going on that money is just some worthless shit that ruin relationships or strain them . so there is no need to bother about it. for when more important things like death ___ comes into the picture, no body will be worrying about it. so while we have all the time in the world left, build friendships, and not evil money scheming fiendships.
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i learned that jestyn's mom died. totally shocking to me. his mom is even younger than my mom. and he has told me stuff bout his family and mom.. so i kinda know her cos of his stories ... i am totally speechless. although i have never met her ; never known wad she looked like. but i miss her, and feel terrible and sad.
what are they gonna do. i pray everything would be okay.
just like i pray for my own aunt and cousins. when death comes knocking on ones door, there is no stopping it.
