Saturday, September 10, 2005
ahhh. the hols is officially over ready. considered so.
at least i gotta watch one tree hill. ((:
and some other funnnaye shows that i have no idea existed.
my bro brought home loads of dvds.
cos it WAS his last week of freedom.
out of ALL the cons of him going to army, i can only find one good thing.
he shaved of that thinggg. under his chin.
how nice.
oh wells. i really miss my brother alot. and i mean ALOT.
it feels so weird without him.
now im all alone, last to sleep. last to bathe. last to eat. last to lock the door.
no one to say 'gaaanight' too.
no midnight chats with my bro.
used to do them after i hanging up with kiatty. talk till wee hours.
now. its just me , the bed and this stupid com.
i miss my brudderrr. alot.
and that cass.
called me today. talked and talked
and then she asked why my brother's hardly around anymore.
which was NOT obvious.
so anyway. she had to tell me stories of ppl dying in army.
i mean the probability of them surviving is QUITE high.
but stilll.
i've got some VERY INTELLIGENT FRIENDS.
anyway.
studying kinda sucks cos its not leading anywhere.
mr sophie sucks big time.
lousy lousy lousy.
lit- worried bout it.
have no idea how im gonna fair.
life is moving on real fast.
holiday plans made.
i dont think i'd be home for christmas this year.
so no party. yupp.
other than the playing and relaxing part of life,
I AM VERY VERY VERY AFRAID OF THE EXAMS.
sept. oct. nov.
so near yet so far.
im so afraid of flunking.
or only getting Cs.
arrrggg. its killing me deep.
tearing me up. my heart's bursting with anxiety.
gosh. i think i'll go sleep now.
