the sound of faith

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

somedays I couldnt get up
I couldnt get down
Im bored of everything
somehow a little black cloud rained over me
someone was makin' me mad
good turned bad, and I lose everything

oh my gawd.
i dont believe this is happening.
SP only offer's 65 places for biomedical science.
i feel as if i just had a heartattack. im serious.
the number is SO LITTLE.
at first i thought , it wouldnt be that of a big deal.
like i thought i could have choices of what i wanted to study.
but then i realised they were all rolled into one.
i really wanna study cardiac technology .
i really wanna study medical science.
gosh its killing me how much ive' ruined my future.

SIXTYFIVE PLACES?
outtof like a billion O Level candidates.
ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh.
I PRAY. I PRAY, GOD HEAR'S my cry.

sometimes I drown my tears
the same old fears came by
someone was makin' me ill
I bet you're still a 2, 3, 4 little word
yes, you heard
pretty little birds fly home

5:19 PM

im done

Sunday, October 23, 2005

AHHHHH. my dearest little nephew Nexus. WHOOTS.
im an auntttaye
(:
and my nephew is so freaking adorable.
mummy says he's real sweet looking.
awwwww.
he's a week old.
i cant stand it. babies are the most adorble thing everr.
God is so great!

hope he'd be chubby and healthy soon.
i just realised that babies cant see in their first month.

and the irony is that i have like a billion and two cousins.
took me THAT long to figure that they cant see.
so anyway.
Nexus is so cuttttte. whaaalaaala.

10:13 PM

im done

Friday, October 14, 2005

there aint no mountain high enough
aint no valley low enough

oh my gosh.
what a nutty day.
(:
didnt go to sch againnn.
oh wells.
was studying. till i got bored at 12+
i wanted to practice my piano. ALL SET.
then watch survivor;
and then the phone rang.
and yushu said. HEY. CAN YOU REACH ORCHARD BY 2!

-rolllls eyes.
i was stumped. haha. like HUH?
that nana really has a silly brain. (or none at all)
and then she ask me to reach kembagan asap.
to meet juniors by 2.
so i rushed like MAD.
and got ready in half an hour. darn proud of myself.
and ran to meet her.
i reached kem by 1.45.
BUT THEN. i missed survivor.
and when i reached kem, I HAD TO WAIT.
because she was watching survivor.
what nonsence please. it was so funny that i decided to blog about it.
hahahaa.

oh wells. when round with the juniors.
was quite okay.
yushu wanted to take pics.
so like took neoprints TWICE. once at heeren,
and then at bugis.
at heeren, saw belle!
WHOOTS**
was soo shock. well kinda.
missed that silly taco like nuts.
and she made me feel all ditzy and witzy
and now, im in a like- high mood.
hahaha
shoot you say?
oh wells im gonna mug hard.
aiiights.

aint no river wide enough
to keep me from getting to you

11:57 PM

im done

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

well well. its been some time since ive last blogged.
maybe today i'd just go directly to what's on my mind.

lots of people have been asking me and wondering why i've changed my mind.
after all, i've always planned on going to AC after Os.
but then i felt that wasn't my calling.
after my chinese Os result. that is.
and then, God let me find a SP booklet in my room.
and the science courses there really appealed to me.
i know lots of people look down on my grades.
prolly cos im never ever serious in my life.
my whole life of education in GM has really been wasted.
its not as if i dont study. im trying real hard now.
but its not like i have to prove it to any specific soul.
im so afraid of what my Os result would be.
terribly afraid of course.
but im putting my bestest ive ever had in life.
different people are bless in different ways.
ive got the - toooooooo laid back genes.
and i am not that kind of an intellect.

but its not about getting jealous in life.
and neither is life about showing off.
cocky people; i simply cant stand.
(and since i'd always say what ever i dare say in front of that person),
NICHOLAS HO is such a cocky ass.
even if u read my blog and see this, im not gonna deny that.
so what if my grades are worst than urs.
u dont have to go shushing people in class as if u're the king of ur stupid chair.

i know my science is terrible. and so is maths.
i know my english and lit's only a B.
i know comb humans is like D.
but i'll try hard. REAL hard.
harder than before.
not because of you showoff.
its cos of my mom and God.
study hard to glorify his name.
anyway. i really just cant stand people who like to showoff.
cant stand people who have totally zero percent of originality in their blood.
cant stand OVERDO-ERS of attention seeking dumbasses.
and i simply cant stand a poser and all of the above rolled into one.
i think he's the only person that has ever made me so mad in life.
to think i actually thought he was COULD be a nice person, before.
i could/might/definitely must have been blind and dumb.

anyway. things dont seem to possitive for others too.
maybe's cos our sch dont do darn moderation.
i really pray to get an A for both lit and english.
WORK HARD. whoots. (:
other than study life, everything's been going on fine.
i love my life that God gives me. im thankful for my grades really.
im thankful for everything that God's bless me with.
and ive really made up my mind to go for SERVE.
and no, im not going because jestyn encourages me to.
its more than that.
so for all those who wonders why im going for SERVE,
its because there's so much more i can give to God.

as the saying goes, ' not because of who i am, but because of what you've done'
the thing i can say for now is, i really wanna be a better person.
i think i've got a long way more to go from what i've become.
i thank you all for the encouragements in life.
and the encouragements about me.
(:

.

yushu too. for all the names ive given you, you can tell you're very special. HAHA. my very very ver ultra superbbbbbbb friend for ten years.(PLUS more to come) from being a childish lamearse to now, a mature lame arse. (: im really thankful we reconciled. for your chance. lets hope we go to the same sch. i make it sound as if we're lovers. OH YEA. hehsss.

my onecamp dearlls! they've been amazing. love them like nuttoszaa!

anyway there's still many more. but they dont read my blog. haha.

so this is like, almost the end of a chapter.
the final leg, as all the teachers' call it.
may god bless my results. (:

dont worry to much ya'all.
GOD IS GREAT. and if its meant to be like he planned it, IT WOULD HAPPEN, COS THEN, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN- MEANT TO BE. amen

2:41 PM

im done