Wednesday, October 12, 2005
well well. its been some time since ive last blogged.
maybe today i'd just go directly to what's on my mind.
lots of people have been asking me and wondering why i've changed my mind.
after all, i've always planned on going to AC after Os.
but then i felt that wasn't my calling.
after my chinese Os result. that is.
and then, God let me find a SP booklet in my room.
and the science courses there really appealed to me.
i know lots of people look down on my grades.
prolly cos im never ever serious in my life.
my whole life of education in GM has really been wasted.
its not as if i dont study. im trying real hard now.
but its not like i have to prove it to any specific soul.
im so afraid of what my Os result would be.
terribly afraid of course.
but im putting my bestest ive ever had in life.
different people are bless in different ways.
ive got the - toooooooo laid back genes.
and i am not that kind of an intellect.
but its not about getting jealous in life.
and neither is life about showing off.
cocky people; i simply cant stand.
(and since i'd always say what ever i dare say in front of that person),
NICHOLAS HO is such a cocky ass.
even if u read my blog and see this, im not gonna deny that.
so what if my grades are worst than urs.
u dont have to go shushing people in class as if u're the king of ur stupid chair.
i know my science is terrible. and so is maths.
i know my english and lit's only a B.
i know comb humans is like D.
but i'll try hard. REAL hard.
harder than before.
not because of you showoff.
its cos of my mom and God.
study hard to glorify his name.
anyway. i really just cant stand people who like to showoff.
cant stand people who have totally zero percent of originality in their blood.
cant stand OVERDO-ERS of attention seeking dumbasses.
and i simply cant stand a poser and all of the above rolled into one.
i think he's the only person that has ever made me so mad in life.
to think i actually thought he was COULD be a nice person, before.
i could/might/definitely must have been blind and dumb.
anyway. things dont seem to possitive for others too.
maybe's cos our sch dont do darn moderation.
i really pray to get an A for both lit and english.
WORK HARD. whoots. (:
other than study life, everything's been going on fine.
i love my life that God gives me. im thankful for my grades really.
im thankful for everything that God's bless me with.
and ive really made up my mind to go for SERVE.
and no, im not going because jestyn encourages me to.
its more than that.
so for all those who wonders why im going for SERVE,
its because there's so much more i can give to God.
as the saying goes, ' not because of who i am, but because of what you've done'
the thing i can say for now is, i really wanna be a better person.
i think i've got a long way more to go from what i've become.
i thank you all for the encouragements in life.
and the encouragements about me.
(:
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yushu too. for all the names ive given you, you can tell you're very special. HAHA. my very very ver ultra superbbbbbbb friend for ten years.(PLUS more to come) from being a childish lamearse to now, a mature lame arse. (: im really thankful we reconciled. for your chance. lets hope we go to the same sch. i make it sound as if we're lovers. OH YEA. hehsss.
my onecamp dearlls! they've been amazing. love them like nuttoszaa!
anyway there's still many more. but they dont read my blog. haha.
so this is like, almost the end of a chapter.
the final leg, as all the teachers' call it.
may god bless my results. (:
dont worry to much ya'all.
GOD IS GREAT. and if its meant to be like he planned it, IT WOULD HAPPEN, COS THEN, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN- MEANT TO BE. amen
