sometimes, the world just leaves you feeling so unappreciated, thou its not true, whatsoever. i dont care. we live in this evil world, and that's what i see.
i see people who dont give no shitte. and i see people who give everything, for nothing. yupp.
i was/am feeling terribly uncertain bout life, and its paths. i was feelin super down, super pissed, super weird. i had this burning sensation, to go to for service, all thru the week maybe even go for 5pm service. and after, let pastorjo pray for me. i simply couldnt wait for sunday.
i wanted all else to fade away, wanted everyone, everything, every problem, every thought to just fade away.
but none of that happen.
-we went up for service late. pastor vincent had alr made the alter call.
i missed it?-
i thought. and was kinda dissappointed cos that' was one main reason i was going to service that day! to be prayed for!
then they started singing a song, which i totally cant remember what it was, cos i was talking to God so fast. i was praying and asking why i had this awful feeling, why why why why why. and then the tears came down, and my bestie, whom FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, WAS NOT DRAG TO SERVICE. she was like, manda can i pray for you? and i nodded, and she said the sweetest, most touching prayer ever. it struck my heart, and made me realised more than ever,
and earnest prayer was all i needed, thankyou nana. i realised this was how God answered my prayer.
you make me wanna cry somemore nana. thankyou forbeing there, when all else was all shitte. superficial, forced/ god knows, and whatnot. thankyou for telling me you appreciate me alot . i'll missyou when im gone.
