Sunday, November 12, 2006
i was thinking alot. alot about missions and all.
i read jiaminzheii's blog. and i saw AUNTY, UNCLE, and HER on TV! (:
all of them looked so cute, uncle in his suit and tie(:
anyhow's i did some kinda put together of alot of the pics. during our trip.
im feeling kinda sad. because i dunno if my parents would support me if i wanted to go into the mission fields.
not even thinking THAT far. i dont even know if they would be happy to let me go on doulos for 2 years.
by the time i finish studying, it wouldnt be doulos anymore, it would be logos hope.
and then i thought about life on the ship.
WOULD I BE ABLE TO SURVIVE 2 YEARS?
none of my friends. maybe even FEW asians. this time, i absolutely ADORE everyone on the ship! ive found good friends in them. GLEN, JON, li, jiamin, UNCLE, AUNTY, WING YAN, too name a few, yea, the list does go on. but then i thought to myself, would i be able to tahan the CONSTANT goodbyes, because every preship leaves once their term is up. would i be able to survive a life like that?
i really loved the 2 weeks i spent on doulos, i think it was the most meaningful thing ive ever done with my life. it beat getting any As on any essay paper, it beat getting my first pay check, and kissing the stack of 50 dollar notes. i dont remember feeling as elated as this. i can feel myself smiling like from within! not the USUAL amandabennett smile that everybody is coming to imitate. but YEA, you get what i mean.
ive got so much love and things to blog about my missions cos SO much has happened and i have grown SO SO MUCH. but then i will think of what i have left behind and feel quite sad all over again. sometimes i wish we can all go up to heaven faster, ): i dont like saying goodbyes. i miss working with tina, i miss working with the douloids. i even miss talking to darius!
darius and i went to a village church together on our church day. i had to do some balloon drama which i learned in 15 minutes. GOD was so amazing! he can really move mountains.
darius had to preach(:
i learnt alot and thank GOD for such an awesome fake gor gor on the trip! he brought us so much laughter, when laughter was badly needed. i remember feeling TERRIBLY cranky like once on the trip, HEY, IM HUMAN TOO. (this is for those that ask me if i ever get angry) i was cranky prolly because i had very little sleep, and was really tired, the tired was the TOTALLY been sapped kind, and things around were just getting me, i was trying so hard to keep my irritance to myself, and darius could just make me smile(:
he's the only grown man who acts EXACTLY like my cuzzin, and he's the only guy that i know that ask me to act cute when im taking pictures. HAH. this was taken while we were having a drill. it was so funny, cos right after we took that picture, lionel pulled darius backwards by his lifevest and gave him a HUGE shock. it was hard for darius to see who did it,cos we were kinda restricted in our movements and vision. (the lifevest was quite big) i was so amused by his reaction that i kept laughing, and if it were me, i would've gotten mad, because it was quite a bad prank, but OMG, im amaze at his patience (:
mmmmm, sometimes we all get to a point in life, where we meet so many good people that we just get sick of saying goodbye, HUH.
sheesh. i even miss uncle jason! and mr andrew from ireland. AND just about the whole ship!
but i must add, I DO FEEL OH SO LOVED. (: mojo was like, mandaaaa you took soo long to come back!
